What has God done for me? Part one.

At my darkest loneliest hour in July last year, God held me.
I spent countless days and nights on a closet floor....I didn't think the crying would ever stop.... and it did.
I lost 20 pounds in a blink and felt like my whole body was withering away.... and it didn't.
God carried me each lonely night...each time I cried, He held me.
I held onto Jesus so tight because my life literally depended on it.
What has God done for me?
He not only carried me a thousand miles to shore when I was drowning out to sea...but he covered my kids, gave me strength, held my head up when I couldn't....He sustained my business when I couldn't work.......He brought the most amazing guy into my life...He is my best friend and I truly love him...I am blessed beyond measure in a year that would have killed me....WITHOUT Jesus.
That is what God has done for me....
I am a better person...my compassion for people has escalated ...& I am overwhelmingly sensitive to others trials....
My God is my perfect husband, my perfect peace...and He will NEVER leave me. I cannot count on another person to define me, for my God is the only one who will never break my heart.
What He has done on the cross. He loved me even before I loved Him.
He chose me long before I chose Him.
Who are we if we don't love others like this? If we don't show compassion.
We all need it, we all need to give it freely....
I have a million things to work on.
But God puts no pressure on me. He loves me in my strengths and my weaknesses.
His word tells me this...

His mercy is new each morning.
Be still and He will fight for me.
He restores my soul.
He has plans for me.
His grace is sufficient for me.
His power is made perfect in my weakness.
He loves me with an everlasting love.

"And after you have suffered a little while, the God of all grace, will restore, confirm, strengthen and establish you." - 1 Peter 5:10

THIS is my God. This is love. This is what I want and all that I need. I thank God for this trial. This trial has refined me to the core, it has restored me, it has made me more compassionate and full of grace. I now rely on Him for each.and.every.thing.
What has my God done for me in this year of death?
He has brought LIFE to me.
Overwhelming, abundant and undeniable life to me.

xoxoxo