Thursday, August 16, 2012
Oh I can't put it down.
This part really spoke to me.
Her journey to self-discovery is brave & admirable.
I am learning a lot from her.
Finding yourself again....Finding a new path
Allowing God is pave a new way for me
All these plans I had...to be married, have more children
That's all changed
At least it's all on halt for awhile
Maybe I will meet another amazing guy someday and have more children
But maybe I wont
And although I can pray and hope for that
I need to be ok with ME
Just the kids
And I am finding so much joy in those things
I get to stay up late when I want
I can control the remote
Sleep in the middle of the bed
Cook or not cook
There is less laundry............
I am just trying to find the best of this mess
That does not mean I am not feeling all the other emotions
It just means I choose not to dwell on them
I choose to be joyful...I choose to trust God to lead me on
I have 10 more months of seperation ahead...I have already accepted it
I see it as 10 months of self-discovery...10 months of pain & trial...but at the same time 10 months of being carried & filled with joy by God...
10 months of finding Kristin again.....
Its 10 am on a Thursday
and I feel great!