I'm alive
even though a part of me has died.
You know, I haven't cried in two days. First time I can say that in 3 months.
And I also have laughed alot these past few days. Genuine, true laughter.
I am starting to get into a groove. At first you take each day, each minute as it comes...
I am starting to enjoy life again...truly enjoy each beautiful day. I am focusing all of my energy on God, my kids & my business. Making this house into my own. Working on me. Healing. It's a nice place to be...I am at peace. I couldn't say that a month ago. Everyday gets better, everyday gets easier.
The divorce is final in June.
I know I did everything I could. I know I fought to save my marriage. I know I said everything I could.
So I am ok. I can let him walk away with no regrets.
You can't make someone love you.
And I shouldn't have to.
I am worth so much.
And I know that.
xoxo
I don't even remember how I came across this blog, but the first words I read from it were "be still and know," and I could feel that it was bigger than me that I found this. I don't know you, but through your words and your honesty and your fearlessness to share I can almost understand a part of who you are, and it's beautiful. reading a few of your posts has been the perfect reaffirmation that I have been searching for and missing for weeks, and I can't thank you enough for helping me in ways I could never explain. so thank you, for making a decision founded in your faith and allowing me to understand it through you.
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